I am a music teacher.
I feel like saying that is like starting a 12 step program...
Anyway, I noticed that some days I feel like the students are giving me a harder time than others. I have come to realization that it is me that is coming to the situation with a confrontational attitude, not the students. I know that this is not a revelation to start a new renaissance in music education, but the reason I bring this up is that I have noticed this fluctuation in perspective in my composition and appreciation of music. It comes in the form of self-doubt, wanting to give up, hearing nothing in what I have written, and defeatism. I am sure that the notes I have recorded haven't changed over night in the belly of my computer, so it must be me. One day I think "That's not too bad....", then the next completely dismiss it as tripe.
The problem is that I cannot see past the present. I cannot shift my perspective to appreciate what I have when this negative outlook takes hold.
On another note: so many projects so little time:
Studio update: NOTHING WORKS! I need help!
Music Update: I think I am shelving the Euphonium Concerto. I figure it isn't coming because it shouldn't at this point. It is like the Holy Grail: maybe we weren't supposed to find it...oh well.