I sat down at the piano one sunday and improvised this, and when I played it back I almost felt like crying. Certainly the saddest piece of music I've conjured up. I feel as if I have heard this music before, and this is unsettling not to know if it was always inside you or you have already heard it. There is some Rachmaninoff prelude in C# minor in there. If you can find other similarities let me know.
These last months I have read and though alot about death and the pointlessness of life (my favorite philosophical subject), hopefully it shines through.
My girlfriend, upon hearing it, asked how I really felt (I'm fine) :)