Alright guys, I've been having a huge sticking point lately and perhaps someone can relate and point me in the right direction.
Back when I first started composing, I would just sit at a keyboard synth and just flip through sounds just playing randomly until I "accidentally" played something that sounded cool. From that point, usually I could kind of feel how more of the song was supposed to go, and I would continue it on from there. I grew to hate writing music this way though, because it's always basically"hit or miss", and I usually would write something of a completely random style, I had no control over if it was happy, sad, clubish sounding, techno, whatever. However I noticed sometimes, I would kind of just "hear" random music playing in my head, so I started deciding to try and write this music out. I failed a lot at first, but I've gotten pretty good at it now. I've dedicated a good part of all my time since then getting better at writing it out as accurately as possible.
The problem is, when I go from notation to actual sound, a lot of the time, I have such a hard time trying to find the sound that I'm looking for, I usually basically forget how the song was supposed to go. Even tho I have it written down, the original version of the song I heard is gone. It's frankly been down right depressing lately. Anyways has anyone here had this problem with composing from the inner ear before? More importantly, have any of you figured out some solutions to prevent yourselves from losing the piece while trying to write it out? Any input at all is greatly appreciated! Thanks guys!